Sunday, October 30, 2011 0 comments

Right Now

It is officially Fall. Every leaf is turning its amber red, maturing and dying before I get a chance to admire. Trees are rapidly losing their volume, turning the campus into a scene out of a Tim Burton film.

With the change in the atmosphere on campus, I am feeling a change in myself. Not just because it dropped 40 degrees in the last 24 hours but more because I have a new outlook on life. I recently ended a relationship, my semester GPA hit an all time low and my grandfather died. This is starting to sound a little morbid, right? WRONG.

To be completely honest, if I were to look at my future self a year ago, I would have been scared out of my mind. I have always been an A and B student (mostly A's, mind you) and my relationship was great but guess what happened? Life.

Life usually happens at the worst times. But honestly, what did it think I would do in response to throwing all of these curve balls? Just wrap myself in a blanket and suck on my thumb until it all went away? Absolutely not. My great grandfather was held at gunpoint by an Oklahoma senator and lived to tell the tale. I have an image to uphold.

All jokes aside, life has been a little rough this semester. I have learned more about myself in the last four weeks than I have in the last four years. I have learned that I am independent and I have to make my happiness a priority before I try to make anyone else happy. I will never be sure why things happen the way they do but reality does not exist without life's mishaps and unfortunate events. It is what makes us real and human in the first place.

If I do not feel pain, sorrow, nostalgia at some points in my life, then I would never consider myself living.
Sunday, October 23, 2011 0 comments

Why My Step Dad Hates Me

All right, my title might be a little bit dramatic. My stepdad does not hate me. We are "frenemies." He loves me one minute and the next, we are at each other's throats.
It really has always been like this ever since him and my mom got married in 1999 after 6 months of dating. I am actually not really sure if they dated that long.

Here's the scoop:

My stepdad used to be a volunteer football coach at Bethany High School. My brother played for him at Bethany and that is how my mom and stepdad got introduced. Then, after they both got divorced from their first marriages, they started dating and eloped. Cool, right? NO.

As much as I love my step siblings/family, it has not been the easiest journey in the world. First, my step sibling that is closest in age (about 11 months older) is also named Victoria (Tori, for short). So we were always called Tori one and Tori two. Do you think I really want to be named Tori two? I mean, I know that it means that I am younger in age, but seriously, take the Tori out of it and what do you think of when you say "one" and "two?" Bodily functions, right? It was cool for about five months and then I was over it.

 Then came the complexity of who could parent who and how we all really felt toward each other. Did I really think of Rich as my new father since my biological father abandoned us when I was eight? My Mom asked me once if I would call Rich "dad." I felt extremely pressured and just told her "no" out of frustration/embarrassment. No, I wanted my real dad to step up his game. But, he didn't. And he never would for the next 12 years.

Back to why my stepdad and I are frenemies. We laugh at eachother's jokes ALL OF THE TIME. Sometimes we will get on this complete laughing streak, just making one joke after the other and laughing for an hour straight. Then, the enemy part comes in when we are talking about something as simple as a reality TV show and have differing opinions. Sometimes he'll try to shove his opinion clear down my throat, while I am just trying to have a simple, intellectual debate about population issues (No, I'm serious.)

But I really do love the guy. Rich and his family took my family in when we were young and struggling. He is like a big, opinionated teddy bear. You can't help but want to laugh at his jokes...

even when they're just downright silly.
Sunday, October 16, 2011 0 comments

Live Your Dream

When I think about where my life is headed,  there are two dominant themes in my mind:

1. graduation (hopefully).
2. moving.

I am inspired by certain, but more or less a random array of people, but the the commonalities among them all are they all dropped everything to go find and live their dream.

For instance, Barack Obama, maybe not so random that I admire him, but come on, he is the first black president.

Obama attended high school in Hawaii and was the valedictorian of his class. After graduation, he attended Occidental College in California but decided to transfer to Columbia University to pursue a degree in Political Science/International Affairs. After graduation, he move to Chicago to work in community development. After a few years doing that job, he attended Harvard Law School. After a couple of years of work at one of Chicago's top law firms, he ran for Senate and won. In 2007, he announced his plans to run for the United States Presidency in 2008.

Obama, being an African American man knew it would be a tough feat to persuade voters to change their prior behavior of electing purely white males as their president. But Obama went after his dream to be president and no matter what anyone says, he has worked so hard to fix and balance our country.

Example deux, Kristin Wiig is a the co-screenwriter of Bridesmaid and a cast member of Saturday Night Live.  I have to say, this is possibly my all-time favorite show. In an interview, Wiig said when she graduated from the University of Arizona, she got a job working as a graphic designer for a plastic surgeon and would digitally reconstruct a patient's face to show them what they would look like if they got plastic surgery, but two days before she started, Wiig decided that she wanted to pursue a career in acting. She picked up her stuff and moved to L.A. and joined the cast of The Groundlings, an improvisational theater in L.A. She was then recruited by Lorne Michaels, the creator of SNL.

Wiig is someone that had no prior training before she decided she wanted to be an actress. She had a dream and she followed it and I find that incredibly inspiring and I can only hope I will do that for myself.

Sunday, October 9, 2011 0 comments

The Distant Hours

I have never taken myself for a big reader. Often times, my hopes are crushed because I have always loved a specific type of novel. Though, I never knew what genre of novels I love most.

I am guilty of judging a book by its cover. When I saw this book, I was immediately intrigued. It is dark, mysterious and strongly attracted my attention. So I hurried home and bought it off Amazon for a few dollars. I started the book a couple of months ago but for some reason only read until Page 150 and never thought of it again.

I recently went on a road trip where I was required to spend 12 hours each way in the car. I saw it lying in my box of books before I left and decided to give it a try.

I fell in love.

The book is about Edie Burchill, an assistant editor at a small publishing house in London, England whose inspiration to become an avid reader came from the classic novel, The Mud Man. She finds the castle at which the author, Raymond Blythe and his three daughters lived and finds that she is able to take a private tour of the castle. She is surprised at the dark and shadowy atmosphere of the house.

I cannot present too much information from the book because I want you, dear reader, to read the book. It has re-established my love for novels and stories that are not often of this world. The Distant Hours takes the reader on a ride into Edwardian Society and into a love story that rivets your soul. It has sparked my interest in the Gothic Fiction genre of books and I do not think it will stop any time soon.
Sunday, October 2, 2011 1 comments

Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter

Let me just say, LOOK AT HELENA BONHAM CARTER'S ADORABLE OUTFIT. I really want to replicate this.

Okay, now that is over with. You know when you see a couple and you just think "they are ridiculously adorable." Well, that is exactly how I feel about Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter. It is like fate wanted to intertwine their dark, mystical lives and create the ultimate arcane powerhouse.

To me, they are the ultimate couple. None of his Brangelina nonsense. Tim Burton is a great director, produce and animator. He has created classics like The Nighmare Before Christmas and Coraline. His movies lift you out of your seat and take you into the dark and dreary world that exists somewhere in Neverland. I have always wanted to be that creative. He creates these worlds where if Gothic Fiction were animated, they would occur within those scenes. I love the imaginative roller coaster their movies take me on. They are the Inception of mystical feature films.

As for Helena Bonham Carter, she is just as genius as her opposite. She takes the words off a script and creates a multi-dimensional character that has a past, present and future without actually portraying the past, present or future. I have heard that she asks her psychologist mother to analyze her characters for her to give a pyschological background/analysis of her characters. It is true acting if you can understand the motivations and emotions of your character more than you understand your own self. It is a true art.

It is my dream to work with one of them one day.